March 10, blog thoughts

Yesterday I was sick and spent the day sleeping. I sleep all day and all night. I feel better today. I don’t know why I don’t do that more often when I have no energy and don’t function well, like I am wasting time or something, or if I am not actively doing something. When I rest my body can heal.

The winter has been so cold I had to buy more wood which was delivered over the last week. Today the person that I bought the wood from came and covered it so it would stay dry. It is these acts of consideration that touch me. I am truly thankful and blessed  to know people that act from the heart.

I live alone and I like it. I can do what I want and when I want. When I am painting I don’t want to clean the house or pay the bills, I want to spent all my time painting. Of course I stop to cook my meals but it might be 9 in the morning and 9 at night or whenever I feel like it. Thankfully I have an active dog that needs exercise so I also get exercise on our daily walks. I also have three chickens that need food and water and I go out in the morning and take the two eggs they have laid. I do waste a lot of time, but it may not be waisting time. It depends on how one views it. As long as I am happy in all the moments, all time is precious ,valuable and appreciated.

I still have belief systems  that I haven’t changed that keep me financially poor and I would like to change that. I have stacks of paintings in my house that should be in other peoples homes to enjoy. I joyfully express my self through painting, but only a few of the paintings reach someone else. This makes me sad, frustrated, and some times feelings of unworthy because I am not communicating my feelings about how I feel about my subject.

I express this now and I know that I bring the energy down, but it is better not to keep it bottled up, just to let you know I am not happy all the time just most of the time. 

I had another gift today. An email from Kathleen Mack from her face book. I went there and looked at all the images of her art, and found them inspirational and funny. She is one of those gifted artists who’s talent is rare and should be recognized and appreciated, and she is equally a beautiful person.